Finding Her Worth
And when she allowed herself to feel worthy—something shifted in her. Doors began to open that long had remained closed.
She stopped following everyone else’s rules.
And she began to think on her own.
She found if she listened close, she could hear her own heartbeat again.
With practice it grew louder, stronger, and braver.
Slowly, but with great emotion, she began to blossom.
Her magic began to return in little and big ways.
It started with great sadness at everything.
Then she began to notice beauty all around. Her corner of the world went from grey to brilliant, nearly overnight. She was filled with an energizing wonder. And fueled by awe.
There were leaves on the trees again, dragonflies who landed on her big toe, and sparkles of light on the water that she was certain were a million tiny angels waiting to play.
There was beauty in the sun, in the trees, and in the smiles of every person she encountered.
Her body felt lighter, freer and her spirit began to soar.
Like she used to in her dreams when she was little.
In the worst of times she dreamed of tornadoes, teeth falling out, finding money that wasn’t really there and dirty bathrooms. She lived in fear, surrounded by worry, and desperately trying to control everything around her.
Now her dreams were of happier things.
Slowly she stopped being scared that she was doing it all wrong. She un-clenched the tight muscles of her body. She breathed.
Because the fear of screwing it all up had already happened. She had failed. She wasn't perfect, nor she realized, would she ever be. And dwelling on all her past mistakes, both large and small, only kept her trapped.
So she tried something new.
She began to believe in herself again. To take back her power.
And with the courage and joy that came along with the newfound freedom of following her heart, she allowed herself to start doing it all right.
She rediscovered the magic.
She found the love.
And all that had once been a distant dream, a hopeful wish, became hers.
She not only began to flourish; she was able to breathe fully for the first time in forever.
She listened to another voice inside now, and this one was kinder and gentler.
It forgave, it loved, it was compassionate. It didn't judge.
And it said all the right things to bolster her confidence.
And on the day when the voice told her she was indeed worthy of everything she ever dreamed.
Until the tears finally changed from sadness to relief. No longer were they heavy tears she tried to stem.
Instead the happy, joy-filled tears fell unabashedly, cleansing her soul of years of struggle.
And she began to float with the current, instead of frantically swimming upstream.
Her spirit felt hopeful.
The world was no longer the hostile, busy, noisy, draining place she had allowed it to be.
And since he was no longer fighting so hard to be something she was not, she was at ease in her body.
She became peaceful. Calm. Quiet. A better version of herself.
And when the now tiny mean voice inside tried to make her feel guilty for all the years she wasted trying so hard, she reminded it that it no longer had power over her. She was the one in charge.
Now when she meets people who struggle like she once did, she wants to shout from the rooftops that it doesn’t have to be so hard. But she knows that everyone has to learn their lessons in their own time.
And nearly everyone not living authentically as their true self needs to hear a new gentler voice inside.
One that says all the right things.
You are worthy.
You are good.
You are loved.
You are blessed.
You are powerful.
You are enough.
Because she now knows if you believe in yourself, your whole world changes.
You CAN soar.